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Look up.

Hello fellow humans,

I know you’re probably oversaturated with the news of the world right now, so I’m going to do two things with this message today.

In the first part, I’ll be talking about the big world news. I’ll try to do so in a calm and centered sort of way, but if you are inundated with this and don’t want to hear about it right now, that is valid.

If you’d like to scroll to the bottom of the email, I’m gonna share some miscellaneous stuff which is bringing me joy lately (music, TV shows, etc) so you can just scroll on down to the big bold text announcing ‘UNRELATED STUFF’ if you want to. It’s underneath the picture of The Sun.

First, I want to talk about what’s coming up for me personally right now. Above is a blackout poem I made a few years ago, which feels very relevant for me once again.

Look up.

This is the message that keeps coming through to me from the universe. I’ll be out on a walk worrying about this global pandemic, and the trees seem to whisper:

Look up.

I’ll be scrolling through my phone reading endless news articles and something within me calls…

Look up.

We can’t deny the gravity of this situation. It’s bad. People are sick and dying. Others pass the sickness along without knowing they are doing so. People who are already at a disadvantage due to their line of work, health, age, etc are now in an even worse spot. There’s economic uncertainty, parents scrambling to care for kids who are out of school, anxieties are running high. This is all real stuff that we can’t ignore or spiritually bypass.

Alongside all of this, there is the call.

Look up.

A couple of weeks ago, right before the shit hit the fan here in America, I went to an exhibit about Pompeii (and several years ago, I visited actual Pompeii on a trip to Italy). Here was this society, going about their lives, thinking everything was fine. Out of nowhere this tragic event hits and destroys everything. Not that the scale and impact are directly comparable, but some of the parallels between that and what’s happening right now were pretty unnerving.

It makes me think about one aspect of the Wheel of Fortune in tarot that is very important to me: you can’t control everything. Sometimes terrible things happen and they evade our understanding.

I’m kind of going to the dark place here, but you know… bad stuff happens. Bad stuff has always happened, and always will happen. Some people believe everything happens for a reason, but that is not my personal belief. I think some things are just random.

Humans like to find meaning in things. We are meaning makers. Story tellers. And maybe in time, we will find individual and collective stories that help us make sense of the coronavirus pandemic. Maybe you believe that this is some broader working of the universe that fits into a bigger plan. Or maybe you don’t. Either way of being is okay.

It may sound counterintuitive, but for me, giving myself permission to stop looking for a reason and meaning behind everything has been very freeing.

It’s okay if things feel random. It’s okay if stuff doesn’t make sense. Especially when you’re right in the middle of the wheel’s motion, as we are now.

So I went to the dark place talking about the Wheel of Fortune, but as they say, there’s always some light in the dark. So it’s a good time to talk about The Star. I’ve been drawing this card a lot lately. Here’s something I shared a couple of days ago on Instagram:

“The Star shows you that there is no need to be anything other than exactly what you are. You don’t need to be perfect, and you don’t need to respond to tragedy in any one right way. Even when times seem dark, there is an invitation to a moment of peace. This isn’t in an attempt to ignore or negate the reality of suffering, but rather to give you a broader perspective.”

This goes back to the recurring theme.

Look up.

Even in the bleakness, there are magical things happening right now:

People are choosing to keep physical distance (not spiritual distance!) to slow the spread of the virus. In Italy, people sing from balconies. In my neighborhood forums people are offering each other all sorts of assistance. Some people are finding space to reconnect with creative and spiritual practices.

And maybe I’m being overly optimistic here, but as a society we are being forced to acknowledge (and hopefully, find ways to mend) the flaws in our healthcare and economic systems.

Where I live, spring is slowly emerging. Going outside is still allowed, and it is necessary medicine. Put the phone down. Look up, and maybe you’ll see birds. Buds. Clouds. Signs of life and movement and sensuality and presence. Like we talked about with the Wheel of Fortune, bad things do happen, and always will. But wonderful things will always happen, too. So I’m not gonna stop looking around. But as much as possible, I’m going to look up.

A few posts I’ve written over the years with more thoughts on times of uncertainty:

Five Tarot Cards to Meditate On For Tough Times
I Hope, I Despair, I Hope
How To Stay Informed Without Losing Your Shit

UNRELATED STUFF!

Here are a few things which are bringing me joy and keeping me sane lately:

Listening to Harry Styles. I am a little bit in love with him, it’s fine. I was too old for One Direction but his solo stuff is real good. A few songs to try depending on your mood: feeling emotional about the state of the world? Sign of the Times. Want a bubbly, Vampire Weekend-esque song that matches the vibe of The Sun card above? Sunflower, Vol 6. Want a chill groovy song which is better live than on the album and also shows how great not only Harry is, but his band is? Lights Up. And my favorite HS song just for good measure: Ever Since New York.

PBS Passport. I mean I get that Disney + is all the hype right now but don’t sleep on PBS, people. I joined passport a couple months ago, gives you access to stream many PBS shows. My favorites right now: Antiques Roadshow and America’s Test Kitchen.

DOPE 4 Bird Personality Test. I have a thing for personality tests and this one delights me to no end. The concept is based around four types of birds: Dove, Owl, Pigeon and Eagle (hence DOPE), each exemplifying different traits. I got really excited about this when a friend described it to me, and I exclaimed :I want to know what bird I am!” Without skipping a beat, she said “oh, you’re a dove, hun.” Sure enough, I took the test online and I am, indeed, a dove. Take it for yourself.

Video games. My husband and I have been playing a fair amount of Mario Kart. We have many of them but 8 is my favorite. I need Nintendo to release a new one like, yesterday. I’m finally getting around to playing Final Fantasy 15 but not sure if I like it. I’ve also started replaying my favorite game of all time EarthBound – such an underrated classic. It’s funny! Has great music! It’s just phenomenal. And although I’ve never played Animal Crossing, I keep hearing about it everywhere lately and I’m thinking about getting the new one that comes out this week.

That’s it for now. Sending lots of love and chill vibes to all. If you have thoughts on anything shared here, please do leave a comment.


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Tough or Tender Tarot

Tough or Tender Tarot

It’s that time again!

It’s been a while since the last round of Tough or Tender Tarot, so let’s remedy that today.
In case you haven’t experienced this before, here’s the idea: tune into yourself and ask which would be better for you: some TOUGH love, or some TENDER wisdom. If you choose tough, I’ll channel my inner Emperor and offer a message which is firm yet constructive. If you choose tender, I’ll channel my inner Empress and offer a message which is sweet yet sincere.

I’ll also be using two different decks today: the Hayworth Tarot (tough) and Playful Heart Tarot (tender).

If you haven’t already, take a moment to choose:

TOUGH

or

tender

Then
scroll
down
for
your
message.

If you chose TOUGH, you have the Five of Swords + Ten of Wands from the Hayworth Tarot.

What conversations do you keep subjecting yourself too, even though they are clearly doing more damage than good? This may not apply to everyone, but the vibe I’m getting here seems related to social media/text message/email or other types of non face-to-face interactions.

If you’re wasting your precious energy debating your aunt’s coworker on Facebook or arguing with randos on Twitter (or even just lurking and watching online debates without actively participating!!) it might be time to walk the f*ck away because there are no winners here. There’s some shadow stuff to consider, because if you’re honest, this isn’t really an instance of fighting for something you believe in. You might be telling yourself that’s what you’re doing, but is it? Or are you just trying to win for the sake of winning, for the thrill of seeing someone else be wrong?

Last bit of advice here is that if you really need to continue this conversation, bring it face to face. So much is lost when we talk to each other behind screens (inflection, body language, etc). The last thing this world needs right now is more faceless disembodied entities hiding behind screens, screaming at clouds.

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If you chose tender, you have Judgement + the Nine of Cups from the Playful Heart Tarot.

Look at all these happy, celebrating creatures! You are in a phase of growth and blooming. Declare this to be true! This lines up really well especially for those of you in the northern hemisphere, as we are preparing to enter spring. Especially if you’ve felt dormant for some time, a welcome shift is now available to you. Don’t shy away. Know you deserve this and embrace this.

Joseph Campbell said that when you start moving towards your bliss, doors will open and hands will help you. This sounds easy breezy and for some of you it might be, but Judgement shows that moving towards your bliss is an active process. Your task is to release resistance and expectations. What feels blissful to you now may be new and unexpected and different from the goals you’d previously been chasing. This is why it’s so important to release expectations. At this time, joy is found in the unexpected, as long as you let it move through you.

The Nine of Cups is traditionally associated with wishes. In this deck, the Nine of Cups is populated with all kinds of creatures, not just one individual. You are called to deepen your empathy and compassion, and you’re learning that joy does transcend the individual. Moving towards joy and bliss is not about being selfish. At this time your primary intention could be “may all beings be happy.” All beings – yourself included, because a rising tide lifts all ships.

 

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So there you have it! I hope your message resonates, or at least gives you something interesting to think about. If you have thoughts to share, please do leave a comment.

In other news…

Soon, I will be participating as a student in Pull Pen Paint. Pull Pen Paint (PPP) is a collection of teachers presenting info about all things magical (tarot, oracle, journaling, art, all kinds of great stuff). The program is organized by Kiala Givehand, and she’s really brought together some amazing teachers… in fact, I will be making a special guest appearance as a teacher at the PPP Deep Dive level! 🙂

Overall, PPP is about strengthening your intuition, connecting to your creativity, and deepening your spiritual practice. You can learn more + register here. That’s my affiliate link – I’m honored and proud to be part of this program! Maybe I’ll see you there?

Take good care,


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Past, Present, Future

Past, Present, Future

A lot of spiritual people set the intention to live in the now. Be present. Here with what is in this moment.

But this doesn’t mean the past and the future aren’t worthy of your attention.

The present does not exist in a vacuum. The present is directly influenced by the past. You are influenced by your personal past traumas and victories. And even beyond this lifetime, the genetic and cultural legacy of your ancestors sway your life today.

Beliefs vary on this, but I believe we are also influenced by the future. What is time, anyway? Is it really linear? Who’s to say that things which haven’t yet unfolded on your timeline aren’t already creating waves for you to surf right now?

And let’s be real: whether or not the past and future are worthy of your attention, they sure do demand your attention sometimes, don’t they? Unless you’re like the Dalai Lama or Eckhart Tolle or something, you probably find yourself pondering the past or imagining the future just as often as you find yourself perfectly centered in the present.

At any given moment, some of your energy is going to the past. Some the present. And some to the future. How much energy you are giving to each – and what that energy consists of – varies.

In some instances, you are consciously aware of this. Perhaps you know you’ve been stuck on something that happened long ago, or projecting yourself vividly out about something that may (or may not) happen soon. But the tricky thing is that you’re not always consciously aware of where your energy is going, let alone why it’s going there.

Why does any of this matter though? I mean, I will try to tell you more about why in a moment, but first let’s let my boy Carl Jung drop some wisdom:

“Whoever protects himself against what is new and strange and regresses to the past falls into the same neurotic condition as the man who identifies himself with the new and runs away from the past. The only difference is that one has estranged himself from the past and the other from the future. In principle both are doing the same thing: they are reinforcing their narrow range of consciousness instead of shattering it in the tension of opposites and building up a state of wider and higher consciousness.”

So basically…if you’re overly invested in either the past or the future…you’re gonna become neurotic. I’m just the messenger here, that’s what Carl Jung thought. So. For the purpose of minimizing neuroticism, perhaps it’s useful to consider the energy you’re directing across the span of time.

I’ve been thinking about this stuff a lot lately, because I’m in a phase where I find my own energy distribution across the time continuum to be… wild. A few weeks ago I visited my parents house and went through a bunch of my old stuff from high school. Which led to a week of obsessively listening to music that I loved in high school. And using all this nostalgia as a sort of comfort blanket against dealing with the present.

Some people might say I was protecting myself against the strange and new while regressing into the past.

Then this week I’ve been on a huge kick of planning for the future. Stocking up on food in case of a global pandemic, considering what I want my business to look like in a year, voting in a presidential primary. Making a list of upcoming albums and video games I’m looking forward to.

Identifying with the new and running away from the past?

Let’s just say I have accepted that I’ll always be a slightly neurotic person. But like I said earlier, there are ways to minimize that neuroticism.

What I shared with you about the ways my own energy is distributed along the timeline is an abbreviated version. Not only that, but I can only discuss this in so far as I am consciously aware of it. And again, we’re not always aware of where our energy is going. Some of your energy seeps away from you, attaching itself to the past or the present, without your conscious awareness.

Luckily for us, there is this tool which is super effective at bringing unconscious stuff into the light of your conscious awareness. This tool is called tarot, of course!

I’m approaching this by using a variation of a classic Past/Present/Future tarot spread. Instead of looking for general reflections, I’m specifically asking what I need to know about the energy I’m giving to each of these realms. And I’ve added a fourth card to bring advice on how I might better distribute my energy.

If this is something that speaks to you, please try the spread for yourself!

Cheers to building up states of wider and higher consciousness,


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Lessons on burnout from the Ten of Wands

Lessons on burnout from the Ten of Wands

I keep drawing the same card over and over lately…and yeah, it’s the Ten of Wands. There are many things this card sparks for me, but one of the big themes here is:

BURNOUT.

I have been experiencing burnout lately. The combination of shipping out a huge volume of decks, plus the oppression of winter, plus the general exertion of Being a Human had all been piling up on me, Ten of Wands style. And I know it’s not just me. Pretty much everyone I’ve talked to lately is going through some degree of burnout!

So when I drew the Ten of Wands again today, it got me pondering what this card can teach us about burnout. Here are some of my thoughts.

Burnout is cumulative.

Sometimes burnout is caused by one major factor. But more often, it’s the result of many factors which might not seem like a big deal when you consider them individually. But when you’re dealing with them all at once, it’s too much.

That’s what we see visually in the card. Just a few wands, okay, this is manageable. But ten of them?! Now you can’t even see the path forward.

The road to burnout is paved with good intentions.

When I think about the suit of wands, I think about the forces that drive us. Zest! Momentum! So the Ten of Wands shows that burnout is often caused by being too optimistic, choosing to pick up all those metaphoric wands before realizing, oh. This is actually a lot to carry and what used to seem exciting has turned into a proper burden.

So one lesson of the Ten of Wands is to say NO. Or at least, don’t automatically jump to yes! Pause and assess before you add anything else to your energetic field. And maybe even find the courage to back out of something you previously said yes to that is no longer sustainable.

Burnout isn’t rational.

I’ve noticed that when I get burned out, one of my first impulses is to tell myself all the reasons I can’t actually be burned out. I point out to myself that lots of people have it worse than I do. And that I don’t deserve to be burned out. I try to convince myself the burnout isn’t real.

But of course, this is the suit of wands not the suit of swords. Burnout isn’t rational. I can usually identify factors in burnout, but the truth is that sometimes it shows up not for any particular reason, but just because.

Burnout is normalized and glorified, but shouldn’t be.

One of the (many) fucked up things about our culture is that we accept burnout as a fact of life. How many of your conversations with friends center around how busy and tired you all are? Burnout is the norm for so many people, and it’s even worse for people at the margins of society.

So, we simply must make changes big and small to transform our burnout glorifying society into one that prioritizes the wellbeing of all creatures. That should be easy! Nah. I know there’s a lot to unravel here but maybe it starts by just agreeing that burnout is a problem and should be treated as such, not just accepted as a fact of life.

Fighting fire with fire doesn’t work.

Oh goodness, this is a big one for me. Like, my adrenals are shot so my solution is to drink way too much coffee and make myself even more jittery. Yikes. Or my soul is exhausted so instead of genuine rest I scroll mindlessly through my phone and then feel even worse. Double yikes.

What I need when I’m burned out is soothing, not another blast of fire. A step away. Quiet. Deep breaths. Something gentle and flowing. When I give myself these things, I find healing.

Hmmm! There’s a lot more to say, but let’s leave it here for now. Take care of yourselves out there. Put some of those wands down. Be well.


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Unearthing your strange jewels: a tarot spread

Unearthing your strange jewels: a tarot spread

I’m kind of in an in-between phase with my creative energy right now.

It hasn’t been too long since the launch of The Spacious Tarot, a project which used up a lot of creative energy, but it’s been long enough that I find myself sitting with the question…

What’s next?

Someone recently reminded me of a tarot spread I created over four years ago called ‘Unearthing Your Strange Jewels.’ I put this spread together while I was reading the book Big Magic, in which author Elizabeth Gilbert says:

“Look, I don’t know what’s hidden within you. I have no way of knowing such a thing. You yourself may barely know, although I suspect you’ve caught glimpses. I don’t know your capacities, your aspirations, your longings, your secret talents. But surely something wonderful is sheltered inside you.

I say this with all confidence, because I happen to believe we are all walking repositories of buried treasure. I believe this is one of the oldest and most generous tricks the universe plays on us human beings, both for its own amusement and for ours: the universe buries strange jewels deep within us all, and then stands back to see if we can find them.

The hunt to uncover those jewels – that’s creative living. The courage to go on that hunt in the first place – that’s what separates a mundane existence from a more enchanted one.”

I thought I’d unearth the spread today for a few reasons: first, I need it. And if I need it, perhaps someone else out there needs it too.

Second, when I initially created the spread, I didn’t make a graphic for it and until someone reminded me of it, I’d mostly forgotten it existed. I think it’s quite an interesting spread, and deserves some proper respect, so I’ve created the graphic above!

Last but not least, the aforementioned person who reminded me of this spread’s existence said “I used this when I first started reading tarot and it resulted in one of the most meaningful insights I’ve ever received about my inner landscape.”

That’s some high praise, so I’m revisiting the spread today, and will share my results with you here. And of course, please do try the spread for yourself if it piques your curiosity!

Here’s the spread I drew for myself…deck is The Spacious Tarot, of course!

First up I have the Ace of Pentacles, drawing my attention to aspects of my creativity I’m already consciously aware of. This makes sense to me on several levels. Aces can speak to beginnings, and I am quite good at beginnings. I LOVE beginning new creative projects, and in true pentacles fashion, I usually have a strong solid start.

This card also gives me a greater understanding of where I am right now: I definitely sense a lot of potential. There are many things I could do from here, and I’m currently tossing them around much like you might examine a seed before you plant it. I feel a nice affirmation coming from this card, almost like it’s reminding me that it is OKAY to spend time sitting with a seed, contemplating it and examining it before deciding to plant it.

Again, showing me something I’m already aware of: timing is important. Continuing with the seed metaphor, if something is planted too early or too late it will grow poorly. So, I’m called to be intentional not only about what creative work I choose to begin next, but when I choose to begin.

And in a more to-the-point sense, this card shows that I enjoy making things that are tangible, that can be seen, touched, felt. Iiiiiinteresting!

The Ten of Cups reversed hints at ‘strange jewels’ within me that are more obscured, that I am perhaps not as aware of. It stands out to me that this is also the only reversed card in my spread, and reversals sometimes have an ‘obscured’ vibe in general to them. The Ten of Cups can be about sharing joy with others, contributing something to the greater good. I’m having a hard time putting it into words, but here’s what I’m getting from this card:

What is obscured to me is the impact that my creativity has on others. Even when I receive compliments or praise for something that I’ve done, there’s part of me that feels anything I’ve ever created is cringeworthy (in fact, when re-reading the old blog post where I originally shared this spread four years ago, I CRINGED). So my ability to accept praise or to entertain the notion that maybe my creativity could actually make anyone happy…that’s what’s obscured here, perhaps.

Justice kind of ties in to this, and did influence my view on the Ten of Cups when looking at the spread as a whole. Justice represents challenges associated with my creativity. And the first word that pops up for me is IMPACT. I do sometimes have a tendency to get into a nothing matters spiral and overlook the very real IMPACT that my creative output has. Hmmmmmmm.

Another aspect of Justice as a challenge relates back to the Ace of Pentacles, because as I said, I’m good at starting things. But Justice shows that my challenge is with follow through. Because starting something is important, and I’m capable of starting things, but I truly do not have the best track record for actually continuing the things I start. Part of Justice’s message is taking responsibility, honoring what it is you choose to do and thinking of it not as a chore but as a sacred task.

Why is my creativity important? THE MAGICIAN! YESSSS BITCH! Sorry, I’m just really excited to see this card here. The message here is pretty simple. In fact, there’s a quote from Julia Cameron (which I included in the guidebook entry for this card) which says it all: as you are a creation of the universe, you are here to continue the process of creation. BOOM.

The Star continues my streak of three majors in a row, and shows how to express and use my creativity. It’s interesting because I’ve been working my way through Mary K Greer’s classic book ‘Tarot For Yourself’ (side note: HOW had I never worked with this book before, it is amazing!) and in one of the exercises Greer has you go through your deck face-up and choose cards that represent your best abilities, and this is one of the cards I picked.

There’s an openness and a clarity to the Star in this deck. The trees are aligned just so. There are no clouds in the night sky. What this card says to me right now is: you may not know the exact next step, you may get lost in the woods as you move forward from here, but you CAN see the big picture. You know who you are and what matters to you. Don’t get caught up on the minute details of what you create, just focus on expressing something that is true and clear. Then you will always be facing the right direction.

And finally, the Six of Wands gives some more advice on my next step. One of the big themes of this card is confidence, and perhaps it ties back into some of my tendencies to be self-deprecating or to cringe at anything I do. This card reminds me that I’ve already created some pretty cool things and I should be proud of that. And I should tap into the confidence to go on to whatever the next thing is with my head held high instead of trying to hide away. Okay then!

Thank you for indulging me in sharing my own reading, and again, I invite you to try this spread for yourself. Go on, your strange jewels are waiting.


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The Playful Heart Tarot Unboxing + First Impressions

The Playful Heart Tarot Unboxing + First Impressions

Alright, I confess…before we were even a month into 2020, I had already acquired four new tarot decks. Last week I showed you the Hayworth Tarot, and today I’m going to show you a deck with a totally different vibe. While the last deck was creepy, today’s deck is…cute!

The Playful Heart Tarot is a brand new deck created by Zaara from KittenChops. Zaara generously reached out and offered me a review copy and I’ve been waiting for the right time to open the deck. The past few days have been kinda blah because my computer broke and then getting a new one turned into a big endeavor and then I got behind on all the work I needed to do, plus it’s February and cold and blah outside. So y’know, I mention this in the video, but they are pretty privileged problems to have, but I still haven’t been feeling the happiest.

So today seemed like a good day to treat myself to a deck which is expressly designed to be CUTE and SWEET! Sometimes we need these types of decks in our lives, don’t we? Click the image below to watch the unboxing video.

That’s it for now, but like I said, I’ve been getting lots of new decks lately. So maybe more unboxings soon? Also have lots of other stuff planned for the coming weeks, so I’ll be in touch.

Sending well wishes to all,


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The Hayworth Tarot: send help I love it

The Hayworth Tarot: send help I love it

Hi hello there is a new tarot deck out and it has become one of my favorite decks already (?!) it’s called the Hayworth Tarot and it is DELIGHTFULLY BIZARRE.

The above photo is what happened when I tried to pick out my favorite cards.

How this deck came to me… there I was, minding my own business on Instagram (as one does) when suddenly I saw someone posting images from this deck. At first I was like, WTF.

Then I was like, I need to zoom in on this image and look at it.

Then I was like, this deck is weird. Hmm. But that Hermit card! And Strength! Woah. Hmm.

Then a day went by, and throughout the day I would think about the deck.

Doing dishes… (that Hermit!)

Replying to emails… (Strength!)

So about 24 hours after first seeing it, I bought it, and then basically stalked my mailbox until it showed up.

The Hayworth Tarot is based on a fiction podcast called Welcome to Night Vale. I had never heard of this podcast before, but after discovering the deck (and while waiting for it to arrive in the mail) I listened to a couple of episodes.

I’m still not sure how I feel about the podcast. I do like the premise: the town of Night Vale is a surreal dessert town where time doesn’t work and odd things happen. The podcast is delivered almost as a news brief, keeping citizens aware of the strange and unruly happenings in the community. So far I like the premise of it more than I’ve liked any of the actual episodes, but it’s good enough that I will keep listening.

But the deck? The deck, I love. There are a couple of images I’m now able to correlate to references in the podcast, but many I have no context for. Having no context is almost even better though, because then you can really just project your intuition onto the imagery.

ANYWAY. I filmed an unboxing (unbagging?) and first impressions video as I went through the deck for the first time. So check that out. I’ll also be sharing more thoughts on the deck below.

This deck is just the right amount of weird for me. It’s different enough to challenge my perceived notions of cards. It’s surreal enough to be used for deep psyche diving and exploration of the stranger aspects of self. It’s slightly unsettling but not overtly disturbing. Well, except the Knights are kind of gruesome. And there are some dismembered bodies. So, y’know. Your mileage may vary with how gruesome you perceive it to be.

I already mentioned having a hard time picking favorite cards, but so far the ones above are the very top contenders.

I mention this in the unboxing video, but Strength in any deck often makes me think about facing the more unruly aspects of yourself. We’re used to seeing a woman with a lion, the lion can be a metaphor for what is untamed and maybe even dangerous or threatening within you. But it can also be a metaphor for what is true and wild about you, but hidden away because maybe it’s not so acceptable among polite society.

In this Strength card, we have someone tearing off their own face. Could be a metaphor for removing the polite masks, letting the beast within you come out for better (or perhaps for worse). The figure wears a shadowy cloak, reminding me of shadow work: facing and integrating what is repressed within you. ALSO THE HANDS ARE GROWING OUT OF THE HEAD AND CHEST, WHY I DON’T KNOW BUT IT IS WEIRD AND I AM HERE FOR IT.

All of the Knights in this deck feature entrails and in the video I mention the Knight of Cups in particular actually making me feel a little squeamish. But since I filmed that a couple of days ago it has grown on me, I just needed to get over the shock of seeing, you know, entrails on a tarot card. A cup of entrails (which is what we see on the Knight of Cups) is not gonna be everyone’s cup of tea, so to speak.

But the Knight of Pentacles is one of my favorite cards. Something is growing from the entrails. Sometimes the gaping black holes in you are not just nihilistic voids, but fertile places making way for beautiful stuff to become real in this world.

My biggest disappointment with this deck is that although there are many very original takes on the cards, there’s also a good chunk of cards which are basically just RWS clones with a Night Vale twist. Don’t get me wrong, they are still delightfully bizarre and I like many of them, but my favorites in this deck are the ones that give us something different. Like the Nine of Swords.

There’s a fine line between nightmares and dreams. There’s a fine line between a good trip and a bad trip. Sometimes these things exist at the same time. That’s what I see in this Nine of Swords.

The Hierophant is just fun? Why do I think this is fun, I don’t know, but I do?! First, we have a misspelling. Which I don’t mind at all because honestly Hierophant and Heirophant is basically like potato po-TAH-to amirite? This is not the first deck to misspell this title and who cares. The Spacious Tarot also has a misspelling so it’s we’re in good company.

Also who cares about the spelling with an image this rad. What is happening? His face is melting. And he’s throwing his hands up like he’s yelling BOO. He’s in traditionalish pope-ish garb which makes it feels kind of irreverent. I like it a lot.

THE HERMIT! It actually reminds me a little of our version in Spacious Tarot. Hands holding a lightbulb in the dark. It’s good. It’s real good.

The Star was one of the first cards I saw on Instagram and it threw me for a loop for a second but then I decided it was great. What was intended by the artist? What is this referencing from the podcast? Who the hell knows. But what I see is someone giving themselves permission to experience abundance. To snort the stars, if you will. How often do we hold ourselves back from joy? All the damn time. How about we stop doing that and be like the figure on this card.

The Eight of Pentacles speaks to my inner nihilist. I also mention this in the video but usually the Eight of Pentacles is like, work hard because it gives life meaning! But this one is like, hey, sometimes society just drills that message into us because #capitalism. Sometimes working hard is really just digging yourself and all of us into a hole. Very timely as we humans proceed to ignore the dire straits our planet is in and put profit above all else. Sad, but important to consider.

I don’t even mind how RWS inspired the Lovers is because it is so great. So these people are basically being disintegrated or something and like pulled up into… a UFO? Another dimension? Also the colors are great. It works for me.

The Tower is one of my favorite tarot cards in general so I’m glad they did something a little different with it here. Instead of crumbling to the ground this one is being pulled up, kind of like the Lovers. Sometimes you just need to abandon your current reality, let it fall apart and reassemble itself in the new dimension.

Here are a few of the cards I don’t like as much. The Moon and Seven of Cups are just kind of let downs, because the deck as a whole has a very Moon + Seven of Cups vibe to me, so I would have liked to see something more unexpected with these two.

The Emperor just isn’t doing it for me. Can’t get the Emperor from that image. Maybe I’ll get there eventually?

The Hanged Man is another that’s just a little too on the nose and boring. I can work with it but it’s not particularly thought provoking for me.

Justice might be my least favorite card in the deck. I really can’t get to an interpretation of Justice from this image. One of the first episodes of the podcast I listened to was called “The Faceless Old Woman Who Secretly Lives in Your House.” I think this is supposed to be her but it’s definitely not how I pictured her! I don’t think they did her…. justice.

The Nine of Pentacles is another that I just can’t get to the card meaning from this image. Is that a dead bird? Why though?

Anyway… as I said in the beginning, this has somehow already and quite unexpectedly become one of my favorite decks ever. I’m not sure how “popular” it will become – I think it came out in November, but when I looked it up I only found two other unboxing videos besides mine. They probably haven’t really marketed the deck to tarot readers as I’m sure the target market is people who listen to the podcast. But my fellow tarot readers, do not sleep on this deck because it is awesome!

I am kind of tempted to do what I did with the Wild Unknown and blog through my thoughts on every single card in this deck. I love it that much. It probably won’t reach Wild Unknown levels of popularity because it is quite odd, but I think there will certainly be a subset of people who love the Hayworth Tarot as much as I do.

You can purchase the deck here.

Watch my unboxing video here.

Until next time,


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Pick a pile (featuring THE SPACIOUS TAROT!)

Pick a pile (featuring THE SPACIOUS TAROT!)

This week I’ve had the surreal experience of giving readings (to someone other than myself) with the deck that I created. How amazing is that?!

My services have been closed for some time, but we have a handful of very generous Kickstarter backers whose pledges include a custom reading from yours truly. Now that the shipping frenzy has calmed down a little, I’ve had the chance to begin those readings.

And today, I would like to offer some open-ended messages, from The Spacious Tarot, for you. If you’d like to participate, take a moment to settle in wherever you are. Perhaps take a breath or wiggle your fingers or stamp your feet or do whatever it is that brings you into

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When you’re ready, take a look at the photo below and choose the pile you are most drawn to: top or bottom.

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Oh my goodness, oh my goodness! I promise, I shuffled thoroughly, yet here we are. Water, water, everywhere, for us all.

If you picked the top pile, you have the Two of Cups and Nine of Cups reversed. The key message that’s coming to me here is this: don’t be so focused on what you wish this relationship was like that you miss out on experiencing what it is actually like.

The Two of Cups can symbolize relationships of any kind, so for some of you this might be a marriage/romantic partnership, but it could also be a close friend or family member.

When you’re close with someone, it’s easy to see the good in them… but it’s also easy to become attached to an idealized version of that person. To let your projection of who they are muddy up the truth of who they are. To wish they would behave a little differently. To want them to show love in a slightly different way.

This isn’t to say you shouldn’t have high expectations of your nearest and dearest. But if it is perfection that you desire, you are always going to be disappointed.

There’s an invitation here to approach this relationship with curiosity instead of presumption. Drift away from how you wish things were and open to the expanse of how things actually are. Let the partnership be what it truly is, and find the lessons available to you through this connection.

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If you picked the bottom pile, you have the Elder of Cups reversed and the Guardian of Cups. We have two court cards here (equivalent to the King and Queen, respectively), and as they are from the suit of cups they speak to your understanding of the emotional realm.

You may be feeling right on the brink of a breakthrough. You’ve been plumbing the depths, sorting through your feelings, processing something which likely isn’t very easy to process. And now, like the Elder returning to the surface, you finally feel ready to emerge with a tangible lesson from all of this.

But then you waver. Uncertainty comes in. Something triggers you, and you’re back in a more tender, vulnerable place.

This is okay. Although it may feel unsettling as you experience it, this is how breakthroughs work. They don’t happen all at once. Feelings don’t always respond to the linear workings of rationality and time. Trust that you are healing. You are finding ways to respect your emotions without letting them drag you under. But it’s a process, and it’s okay if you backslide occasionally.

The Guardian of Cups stands vigil at a flower, reminding you to honor and protect what is fragile yet beautiful within yourself. You’re further along than you think you are, and you are fully capable of swimming onwards from here.

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I hope you found something resonant in your message! With all of these cups coming up for us, it feels appropriate to end with some sentiments that are kind of mushy but very true:

You are love and you are loved. Like the ocean, you can be simultaneously tumultuous and serene. Thank you for being here.


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I’m late to the 2020 party + life as an indie deck creator!

I’m late to the 2020 party + life as an indie deck creator!

Disengage.

This is my word of the year for 2020. Seeing it typed out in big ol’ bold letters like that makes it look… I don’t know, intimidating? Stark? But also… necessary.

I am not yet sure how this word will come into play as the year progresses, but I can tell you that so far the energy of Disengage feels neutral. It kind of reminds me of how I view the Death card.

I’ve always thought of Death not as a negative card, but as a neutral card. It is not malevolent or spiteful or dramatic. It just is.

That’s the best way I can explain how the word disengage feels for me right now.

I just posted a new video where I talk a little more about the word disengage. And the paradox of needing to disengage in order to re-engage. I also talk about some stuff coming up for 2020 in general, and share a little of what my life has been looking like as an indie deck creator.

It’s a casual and chatty video. So have a listen and/or a watch if you could use a dose of Carrie’s rambling thoughts!

Another thing addressed in the video is my repeated (and failed) attempts to get back into a consistent groove of putting things out online.

2020 is my year for this, baby! By disengaging from some unnecessary stuff, I hope to also create space to engage more deeply with my blog. And newsletter. Finally. This isn’t the first time I’ve yammered on about this topic, so this time I’m making the goal official: weekly content creation. From a place of love, not pressure.

What I’m saying is, hopefully you’ll be getting emails from me throughout the rest of 2020!

Behold! A picture of my hand, touching my own tarot deck! This is real life. That’s another thing I mentioned in the video: the past month or so has been such a whirlwind that I still haven’t really integrated everything.

We made a deck.

I love it.

It is out in the world, and it belongs to everyone now.

Wooooowwwww!

I’m sure I’ll be talking a lot more about this deck in 2020, but there’s just one more thing I wanted to make sure to mention today: we’re already working on a few small changes for a second edition!

The first edition will officially be a limited print run. When we sell out of what we have left now, that’s it. Here’s a post on our Instagram page with more details, and if you’re interested in purchasing the first edition you can still do so on our website.

As always, thank you for being here.

More soon!

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Foundational Tarot

Maybe you’re totally new to tarot and feel overwhelmed about where to begin.

Or maybe you’ve been working with the cards for a while, but things aren’t totally clicking yet.

If either of these ring true, this course is for you!

Foundational Tarot is a free video course which teaches several useful frameworks for learning tarot. Get immediate access by signing up for my mailing list below. 

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Here’s a peek at some of what you’ll learn in each section of the four part course:

Part 1: The Energy You Bring To Your Tarot Studies

  • How to minimize overwhelm
  • What to focus on instead of memorizing card meanings

Part 2: The Broad View

  • How tarot ‘works’
  • How to define your tarot intentions (and why this is important)
  • What intuition is and why it’s actually a good thing to question your intuition (juicy stuff!)

Part 3: Foundational Tarot

  • The overall components of a deck and how they harmonize
  • A map for understanding the major arcana
  • What each of the four suits is all about
  • A numerology framework for understanding cards Ace through Ten
  • How to become acquainted with the court cards

Part 4: Conducting Readings

  • Guidelines for looking up card meanings
  • How to interpret reversed cards
  • How to prepare for a reading
  • The 7 best practices for working with spreads

I am a big believer that you’re never done learning tarot, and of course we can’t cover everything in one short course! But I’ve packed as much value as I can into this offering and I hope you will find something useful here.

Additional resources mentioned in Foundational Tarot:

Books:
78 Degrees of Wisdom by Rachel Pollack
Everyday Tarot by Gail Fairfield

My past blogs/videos:
Unofficial Wild Unknown Tarot Card Meanings
A Map of the Major Arcana
The Easiest Way to Read the Court Cards
How to Read Reversed Cards
How to Create Your Own Tarot Spread


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